Some one once told me being a Bitch is also an accomplishment…a title you have to earn!
Im not sure if Im honored or sad but I did earn this title during all my working years…but as I time progressed, I got married and now Im preggars I can see this title slipping away from my grasp….so should I be happy or sad?
Let me define you some of the sobriquets Ive earned all during the past few years:
1. Lets’ do an Amrita on this!
2. Oh gawd, not that Hitler again!
3. There she comes and now everything will be questioned!
4. Thank God she is not running a popularity contest!
5. Why does she has to be so loud and aggressive?
Well I can dig out more but these are more recurring ones across different teams, companies and so on. It didn’t help me either that I was always given projects that needed execution excellence, meet impossible timelines, manage different teams across different locations and ofcourse always had some dead weight around with laggards and black holes in the team!
So as the days are progressing, and I’m in the final throws of pregnancy and the execution of the biggest launch of my career….it seems surreal that Im so calm and collected and not screaming murder like before?
One of my ex CEOs (and still my mentor) once told me after I got married that people change but you showed a change in the form of a Step Function! He is an IITian and Im a Mathematics Hons so we understood and laughed! (Nerdy Joke)
For the uninitiated, a Step Function is defined informally speaking, as a piecewise constant function having only finitely many pieces. Which basically means that you have certain properties and then you have a different set of properties and when you can combine these properties thru an equation they represent a real line….if you are confused go to Wikipedia :)
It seems that post-pregnancy Ive changed another Step! Someone commented other day that despite they trying to instigate me I wasn’t losing my temper and not getting into a scolding spree…..what can I say?
I don’t know if its the pregnancy hormones or the fact that Ive aged a bit more but yes I do feel the change. Things that used to get my goat do not irritate me so much. The study table at home is a mess and Im still not getting upset, things are not moving in particular areas at work and Im still not writing nasty emails, some people are refusing to raise the game and Im still smiling at them….you get the drift!
For better or worse but it seems this is new me.
For good or bad this is going to be the start of a new career profile.
For reasons best known to the powers that are I don’t have to garb my aggressive nature during the interviews and say “Im impatient for Results”!!!
Im enjoying this phase of life and learning from it that it really is OK! It causes less heart burn, less nightmare and sleepless nites and so on….more later on this. Friends and colleagues out there have to affirm and confirm if the change is temporary or here to stay…..Amen!