Between the cries of Aaleiya and the barks of Romeo, life seems to be saying Hi and Hello in mysterious ways. Everything seems a bit surreal and only love seems real. Is it me or is it the effect of new motherhood? Whatever it is; anything that is negative or painful seems so transient.
Our little baby has wrapped all of us around her li’l fingers. Romeo who initially was quiet disturbed with the idea of a crying baby is not a zealot when it comes to guarding Aaleiya. he refuses anyone other than us to come near her. Leaia who is forever happy to find a new playmate can’t wait for her to grow up. P who initially was nervous to hold her seems to be really enjoying changing nappies and clothes for this li’l girl!
Now its my turn. Initially I thought, it will be difficult for me to leave her with the maid and go for work. But then with the cameras in place, etc once I went to office there was no looking back. Does it make me a bad mother that I really did not have any separation anxiety or pangs? I went to work and it took me few hrs to get immersed into the rhythm and then there was no looking back.
How does it go from here?
I don’t feel any different, I look forward to coming back home but I also look forward to going to work in the morning… I eagerly wait for the Friday to end so that 2 days can be spent with my girl but then I also wake up early on a Monday morning all set to go to work… When at work I don’t think of anything but work but once I’m home I shut off work…
Do all mothers feel like me or am I different? We will see how it goes from here but for now Life is saying a big Hi to me and I wanna say welcome home to life :)